Long time ago , Another Life

Things changes inside of me . I totally can't believe that I did read text book , for over 9 hours in 1 day... It happened this sunday (19-10-08) . And the following days , I also keep my eyes on books for long time... ... Hmmm , maybe I just want my mind not to so free . Free , I will think about many nonsense , for example , about love ? Live without love in long time making me abnormal . Now just trying to concentrate myself in more meaningful thing ... To the world?E.g. Studying? I don't know . Recently also not very like to stay online . My heart feel weird when saw her online ... ...

Pornography describing or showing sexual acts in order to cause sexual excitement (defination of Pornography by Oxford English Dictionary) Hmmm , if I not forgot , movie "Don't mess with Zohan" is just comedy movie that rated as "U" By the Jabatan Filem Malaysia . U stand for " untuk semua lapisan masyarakat " .Well , I don't know why , stupid teacher wrote a report to the principle . "6BS1 students wacthing pornograhpic materials in the class ... " WTF? You're right , we were wacthing "Don't mess with Zohan" , but the teacher report us wacthing pornographic . If "Don't mess with Zohan" is porn , that mean all video rated as U are porn ... However can't denied that "Don't mess with Zohan" got some part with naked ass . But that's not pornography , ass not reproductive organ , unless you give birth with ass or feed milk with ass . And Jabatan Filem Malaysia allowed it to play in cinema ...

The distant between you and me getting even far . How innocent am I for being trusted in you and waiting for your answer . But now when I thought it back , I laughed . How idiotic am I for doing this kind of nonsense act . Although you were not answering , but I can know your answer very clearly . Tales about you all around my ears , but still , I choose to trust you . Until last few days , the words you said to me , it like I'm nothing in your heart , not even a friend . And I'm the kind of guys you think , totally disappointed with you . Today , I done another stupid act . That's is trying to forget you by not contacting you . I know they are useless methods , I know my heart will never let me feel free ... ... /\/\ Felt that getting even useless by day to day ( /.\ ) Disappointed with current life ... ... / TT \ Holded position in my previous memories... ... Getting older and even blur these days ... Emotion : Upset... ...

Haha , so long didn't update my blog already , since no mood recently and being so lazy . My life now very messy . Well , I update my blog is because I have a great thing to share with you guys/gurls ~ Now , read this story 1st : " New year coming , a boss gifted a bottle of wine to 1 of his employee . 1 week passed , the boss ask the employee :'how is the wine?' 'Not bad.' said the employee. 'What's the mean 'Not Bad'?' the boss asked. 'Well , you know , if it is great , you won't gave it to me but keep it yourself ; else if the wine is bad , I will give it to others . Therefore , not bad , is the best describe the wine.' The employee answered. " So , how you feel after read the story? The same thing happened in our real life . Here , another story : " 2 men are in conversation ... 'You stopped smoke for her?' man 1 say. 'Yup' man 2 say. 'You stopped alcohol drinks for her?' man 1 say. 'Yeah...

Well long time didn't update my blog already ... Just now accidentally heard this song , it is from Hong Kong (God of Singer) - Jacky Cheung Hok-Yau . A chinese song with quite meaningful lyric , as least quite meaningful to me . This is my 1st article in mandarin in this blog . Well , I just done the translation of the lyric myself . Please correct me if I translated wrongly. 你知道吗 (Do you knew) 爱你并不容易 (Love you was not easy) 还需要很多勇气 (And needed a lot of courage) 是天意吧 ( Maybe was the will of heaven ) 好多话说不出去 ( Many words I can't tell ) 就是怕你负担不起 ( Worried that you can't bear it ) 你相信吗 ( Do you believed ) 这一生遇见你 ( Met you in this life ) 是上辈子我欠你的 ( Is because I owed you in my previous life ) 是天意吧 ( Maybe was the will of God ) 让我爱上你 ( Let me fall in love with you ) 才又让你离我而去 ( after that let you left me ) 也许轮回里早已注定 ( Maybe was my fate in Samsara [cycle of rebirth] ) 今生就该我还给你 ( This life I should paid you back ) 一颗心在风雨里 飘来飘去 ( My heart was wandering under wind and rain ) 都是为你 ( ...

Yesterday visit Ipoh for 1 day . At there , we visit Songkai hot spring and Gua Temburung only. Well , the trip nothing special also. But the food taste quite well. 7.30PM , while I on thw way to home , my phone rang. It's from zzloo . Asking whether me want to go to school or not . ( My school had musical performance last night ) . Telling me that she came . Actually I guessed that she will come to this performance . I'm deciding whether want to go or not . zzloo ask me to gambateh , don't be a loser . Well , since zzloo went to the concert already , I decided to give myself another chance . It was almost 8.30PM when I reached school . Luckily the concert delayed , started about 8.15PM , so I didn't miss much . Well , I gave my camera out to juniors . She was sitting so close to another guy , here I name him "Z" . Z not her boyfriend also , but so far I known , Z is chasing her. They 2 sitting on a same chair , ya , 1 chair . I try to go nearby her and chat w...

Haiz , suddenly feel like want to upgrade my blog . It seem like already 11 days don'y have a new post already . Well , I made summary for thing happened past few days. 1 , 2, & 3 June , Sg.Lembing Photography Camp (Trip?) Well , this is a very worth going photography . I really did learned many things about photography in that camp . And it feel like my photo improved alot after this camp , hehe , just my feeling anyway. Haiz , 1 very regretful thing happened . My camera sensor dirty already . Many black dot in the photo I took dammit !. Maybe will go to next camp organize by this organizer @ Pulau Pinang . Well , let me show some pics XD. 5 June , Went to pudu for my cam Today I go clean my dirty sensor . Well the person said the black dot was called stain , something that formed by dust + water vapour . It is normal , he said , if you always change the lens. Well , bought some toys for myself too , + 3 close-up filter , well , in other words , just a magnifying glass == see...